Pictures. Memories.

Tonight, while waiting for my shift to end, I organized the pictures from Brawny. I terribly missed him. Looking at the pictures, at our past, I felt happy. I wish to bring back that happiness. Only him made, makes and will make me so happy. I pray to God that we will live together forever. I wish to marry him one day. I love to spend the rest of my life with him. If this is obsession, it is a beautiful one, because I have learned to love, cry, give and wait.

Palangga, you taught me patience, care, understanding and unconditional love. You might not feel the same way about me anymore, but I still love you, forever, until eternity. I can feel that you will leave me soon, contrary to your promises, I don't know what to do then. I hope that God will be with me. 

Lang, wherever destiny brings you, you can always come back to me and I will willingly accept you. I've surrendered in this battle because I cannot force you to choose me. I am happy with your success, but i would be happiest if I am behind you in it. Sometimes, I am still wishing for a happy ending for us, but with it is the hurt that you chose someone else over me.

iloveyou... so much...

S.

I never thought of creating a blog about this until now. Beforehand, I have written letters, e-mails, notes and messages, kept in my planners, cellphones and computer. It hurts that the person whom I wrote these letters to, never had the chance to read them.

This time, I will let serendipity and destiny take its role. I will wait for the time that in this world wide web, among billions of websites, our love will bring him to this blog.

Palangga, iloveyou... so much... forever... endlessly...

S.